\Met`a*mor"pho*sis\, n. [L., fr. Gr. ?, fr. ? to be transformed; ? beyond, over + ? form.] A change in the form or function of a living organism, by a natural process of growth or development


I've come to a pont in my life where I view the world through different eyes, and I've actually changed. For starters, I'm getting into shape, the thought of sitting on the couch for an entire day and playing video games doesn't interest me anymore, I get anxious and the desire to go out and do something, going to the gym at MacEwan or running....whatever, it gets a hold of me because I don't want to be the poor bastard who's 28, balding, lives on delivery in a run-down hovel and boasts about his "keg" at work. Secondly, and this will shock all of you.......porn and masturbation have lost all novelty, I can't see how but they have, I've deleted every trace from my computer, and cancelled all my free email subscriptions and what not, and since I didn't have any magazines etc. there was nothing to burn......now I am a little disappointed in that but I think I'll manage. But the thing that shocks me, though it probably won 't shock any of you......you probably won't care, is that fact that I feel the need to go out and find somebody, now this scares me, it really does. One of the greatest fears is the fear of the unknown and those that knew me in high school know that I never had a girlfriend, I never had anything close, yes there were a few "incidents" but those........never led to anything, ergo they have no bearing on anything. But it's funny because, you finally meet someone and you think things could really work, but..........guess what, they're already taken. I guess it comes from years of saying that "Lady Luck is my Bitch." Haha, and I thought I'd never change, that I'd be an asshole for the rest of my life, a prick forever, getting even worse with age............guess I was wrong.

-Errol