Greek pasta, Italian salad

a blast to the past...well sorta...originally i had meant to write this a long time ago, like right after i got back, but i got busy, too busy. they say travelling can expand your mind and make you more aware of other cultures. All i really learned is that Italians are crazy drivers and greek people all have "good deal for you" and of course it's "all top quality". as with all trips it never goes all to plan, like for instance me losing my ticket at 4 in the morning at the airport...only to find it half an hour later on the sidewalk outside. then of course there were the constant pickpocketings, muggings (actually this only happened once...well not really...they tried to pick his pocket and he kicked the crap out of 'em) then losing one person in the subway and the stuck up whiney girls bitching about how they won't get to go shopping now, fuck 'em! then the whole incident in the club, and out of the club, when one person in our group got drunk took off out the window and fell 15ft onto his head, and the police wouldn't touch him because if he attacked them they'd shoot him...i love greek police. no i don't...and i hate the italian ones even more, they were everywhere dammit! on every street! and i hatethe breakfast there too! who the fuckeats only a slice of sick tasting bread for breakfast??? i'll bitch more later but for now...i sleep!
-Matt

BLAH SPLAH!

You know...i've tried to keep this thing running, but sometimes people get reall busy, what with Rugby and work and homework that i get tons of in chem 30 that i have to do simply because if i don't i'll fail the whole course, and also i can partially blame the fact that i did just go to greece and italy and it's kinda hard to blog when i'm out of the country and the only computer i had access to and a greek operating system that i couldn't make heads or tails of. also I've yet to have a free weekend to myself, i actually spent my entire birthday which was last friday at school them working and then doing volunteer work, no cake no presents no party no nothing, not to metion that some of my family didn't even remeber til today that it was my birthday. Aye truly i've been busy. as for the message board, that's not my fault, i've gone over the code many a times and found nothing wrong, i've concidered going and using a different one but for that i'm just a bit too lazy.
-Matt

Boredom...
This place is for me to bitch. So I will, even though I don't have much to bitch about today. I am kind of in a lazy and tired mood that really gets me nowhere. I guess I could say something about how nobody cares about this site at all. I mean Louis had only posted here 4 times and Matt did for a bit than quit. He hasn't even bothered to fix the message board or anything. Plus we don't get any traffic except for maybe people that get sent here by mistake when they do a search that goes bad or some people from forums I go to that might for some reason click on here by some form of boredom/curiosity. Then they realize all this site is for is so I can bitch and they quickly go away. My first posts here were actually good I think. Mostly since I was in a state of depression and it showed very much so in my writing and that made it somewhat interesting to read.
I just realized that even if you read all of my posts here you would know nothing about me. This really is nothing like a journal. You wouldn't know that I have 2 brothers and I only live with my mom or that my best friends are Louis and Keren or that I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 months on April 15th, almost exactly a month after I told him we were having problems. Neither would you know that I was going to break up with him on our 4 month anniversary, but somehow got convinced during our conversation that he would change and that he knew he wasn't treating me right in the first place. I never really realized it was 5 months until I woke up and the first thought in my head was "It's weird that I have a boyfriend and yet don't care that I haven't spent any time with him for about 2 weeks now. Plus before that it was about a week between times I saw him." I think the only reason we managed to spend 5 months together was because we never saw each other in the end and it didn't seem as if we were going out anyway. Also I knew that I wanted to be his friend and really that is what we became in the end of our relationship anyway.
-Dark Lily 0>--}----

Teacher dilemmas

Well... I got a teacher mad at me today. Not only mad, but now she totally distrusts me and the thing was she thought I was at least one of her favorites just this morning. She invited the top 10 people in our grade to go on a conference with her for the day. It was all these workshops in French about future careers in French. Well for the final part of the day my friend wasn't feeling good so we skipped the ending ceremony and went outside. And then just met at the meeting spot at the time everyone was supposed to meet up. But before we got there she noticed we were missing and someone told her that we skipped the whole thing to go shopping. But it wasn't true! When we showed up she wouldn't talk to us because she was so mad. The only thing she told us is that we aren't allowed to go on the 2 other conferences this year and told us never to ask to go on any other one. We didn't get a chance to tell her what happened and now she was so mad at us. She is mad because we didn't tell her were we went and she thinks we skipped out because we weren't having fun and went shopping instead. She took it as a personal attack on her special day. She feels that we were very irresponsible and now she doesn't trust us because we went against her. But all we did was go outside for 30 min and walk around the block a billion times just to get fresh air. I've known this teacher since grade 5 so she is soooo disappointed in me. So now she doesn't trust us and even if we explain it then things wont be the same as before. Since this is the maddest and most hurt I have ever seen her. And so my relationship is screwed up with her... and I know we should have asked her before we left because that wasn't good not too, but its worse what she thinks now about us and I feel sick because she doesn't trust me anymore.
-Dark Lily 0>--}----

It doesn't matter whether I do it or not

I didn't procrastinate. The one time I don't and it still doesn’t help me one bit. I started homework as soon as I got up Saturday morning. Well ok… about an hour after, but I needed to eat and do some other such essential things such as posting (yes I put that there just for you Lou). But right after I actually started my homework! I shut off all my messengers… well a couple of them were on away, but they always are anyway. What did I manage to do? Well I got my scanner working, cropped a few pictures, wrote out exactly half of my autobiography and then managed to get up half a section on the web site. So no matter what I'm screwed because I still have about 60% of that project to do, 2 tests tomorrow and a couple units I have to hand in for various subjects. Plus because most of the world is stupid, we lose an hour. I could actually maybe get an hour of sleep tonight, but noooo…. We need to let that go to waste. I don’t even understand why we do it anyway. I mean we didn't do it when I was in Japan, so I didn't gain that extra hour because they don't feel like doing it, so I basically lost an hour there too. Ack whatever. All I know is school sucks and I can't wait till I leave it. Even this one time I waste a whole Saturday doing homework it helps me none since I still have about 3 days of homework pilled into one day since teachers are cruel.
-Dark Lily 0>--}----